Am I bad, or am I mad? For Blaise D'Souza, this was not a philosophical question; it was a decades-long war waged within his own mind and soul. Torn between the psych ward and the prayer group, between a diagnosis of Bipolar II and Cluster B personality disorders and the terrifying belief that his sins had opened the door to demonic activity, he was a man drowning in a sea of contradiction.
Following his short memoir
Let them know I love them, D'Souza now tells his complete story.
No Madness No Badness is the raw, unflinching testimony of his war: the story of a boy who endured trauma in a chaotic home, a teenager who built a fortress of recklessness to survive, and a man whose frantic search for a cure led him from Catholic charismatic retreats to the brink of suicide, from a prestigious PhD program in America to the depths of addiction on the streets of Mumbai.
This is not a self-help book with easy answers. It is a vulnerable journey to the heart of life's most painful questions about faith, mental illness, and personal responsibility. It is a story about hitting rock bottom and finding grace in the most unexpected of places.
No Madness No Badness is a testament to a love that refuses to condemn, a love that meets us in the middle of our most confusing struggles. It is a book of profound hope for anyone who has ever felt torn apart, lost in the gray area between madness and badness, and yearned for a single, coherent truth that could save their life and their soul.
About the Author Blaise D'Souza is a writer whose work explores the complex intersection of faith, mental illness, and the search for healing. He is the author of the short memoir,
Let them know I love them. His new book,
No Madness No Badness, expands upon the themes of his first work, telling his complete story to share the message of God's unconditional love. Drawing from his own decades-long journey with Bipolar II and Cluster B personality disorders, he writes with a raw honesty and profound compassion. He lives in Mumbai, India.
